You are viewing ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
maryannespier22's journal
You are viewing maryannespier22's journal
 | |
|
|
|
| |
|
So, I really don't know why, but I just searched for about a year for a picture of my prom dress.  I can't wait to see everyone there! : ) |
|
| |
|
Tonight is Maggie's party....I've heard that Cary is going to be there. I don't know if I should go, although I would bet anything if I decided to just stay home, someone would drag me out. It's just, I don't know if I can see him. It's hard enough avoiding looking into his eyes at school, let alone outside of school? I miss him so much. And he acts as if he hasn't a care in the world, which apparently he doesn't. At least not for me. |
|
| |||
|
I wish I knew why Cary felt like he needed to break up with me. I wish I could make my own escape to New York, like when he and I skipped school that one day to go. Most of all I wish I had been able to change his mind.
|
|||
| |||
|
( in the end, it's the hope you cling onto that matters )
|
|||
| |
|
I have decided to start writing what I am thankful for, instead of writing what I am not. Or what upsets me. 1. I am thankful for my awesome family. |
|
| |
|
Sam emailed me yesterday wondering about Dr. Reese. I knew things were going bad with his father, I really just hope he can get the help he needs. Which makes me wonder a bit if I should be seeing her more often. I have seen her a few times since what happened with... but, is that enough? I have been thinking a lot lately. About everything. I am not even sure where I want to go to college. I don't want high school to be over. I want to stay here in Stoneybrook with all of my family and all of my wonderful friends. Now everyone will be gong their separate ways, and it is just..too soon, I guess. And what will happen between Cary and I? I don't want us to end up going to separate colleges, but I know it would not be healthy to mold my college choices around him. I should probably talk to him soon. |
|
| |||
|
Life could not be better right now. I have the greatest friends, the best family, and a wonderful person in my life that makes me happier than I ever have been before. He challenges me for who I am, embraces the differences between us, and I know he loves me. I just wish that he would tell me so. I know he has to do it on his own accord, but I feel like I put myself out there when I told him that I love him. After everything we have shared, all the special moments, all the silliness, all the quiet serious talks, all the naps. I feel like I could spend the rest of my life with him. I could never tell him so in those words exactly, but I think he understands that when I say I love him, I will love him forever. Cary really is a special person and I know how hard it probably is for him to show his emotions. He shows his love in other ways, so why do I need to hear those three words so badly...
|
|||
| |||
|
Tigger is missing. Cary and my family and I searched for hours last night. He is no where to be found. We are searching today as well. I can't believe my poor Tiggy is out there all alone. If anyone wants to come and help search, I would be very thankful. 
|
|||
| |||
|
How do you tell someone you love them, when you aren't sure they are ready for your confession of love in the first place?
|
|||
sad
hopeful
contemplative